A yearning
A yearning so strong
A yearning so agonizing
A yearning so demoralizing that it causes one’s identity to be called into question
A yearning that causes doubts:
Can I even call myself this
Am I enough of this
A yearning to simply belong
A yearning to not confuse and surprise
A yearning to stop questioning
A yearning to stop feeling like an impostor
A yearning.